Six months since my last post! should i say that i had nothing worth sharing?? or that there has been such impactful events happening that im still sorting and understanding them?? However, as we all know life has both of these well balanced out. Thats whats keeping me so self absorbed :)
Ive been in pondicherry since february, making pots and developing sculptural work. This time i also started teaching there which had some delightful results. Most students were french and reminded me again how similar we humans are no matter where we come from. Also taking children yoga workshop was tremendous fun, the high energy and playfulness that kids bring :)
However the intensity at which i worked at the pottery caused a disconnect in me. i overworked my body, did not listen to it and landed up in a lot of pain. Infact, instead of relaxing and allowing the distress to ease of I kept complaining and adding more toxic thoughts!! Its a miracle that i continued all that physically intense labours with clay, a sure enough proof of the years of loving yoga practises. Thats what really kept me going.
The fact was that i had completely stopped listening to what i really needed to do. So often we trick our self into believing something that doesnt really resonate with who we really are. I lost myself trying to "fit in" please others and keep up my goody good image. All this trying is so pointless coz you can never be truly good and loving if your unkind and false with yourself. And at the root is that doubt, the fear that "i am alone" so i "need" people or some thing or event or circumstance to achieve what i want. All this drama does is further to eat into your faith, that basic knowledge that it is life that supports us. Not people, circumstances or events. its our thoughts and feelings of love, appreciation and gratitude that really gets things going in the right direction.
and what is the right direction? the path, the activities that bring a sense of wholeness, a quiet joy in our heart. we know we are on the right way when we can stand up to a discomfort, question what is this fear and realise that its not so powerful. Let the worst happen, life always has supported me and will always continue to, as long as I appreciate and trust this wonderful life, God, higher being or energy. by whichever name you call it, doesnt really matter. Its the feeling that does matter.
and we can only start feeling all this when we are true to our self. To see whats really going on we need to quieten down, stop the incessant thoughts- doubts- fears. Yoga is one way. Following the flow of breath, we align to the flow of life. Now, i truly appreciate the beauty of my breath, of my life. Life wants me to breathe, to love, to enjoy it. Thats what i now know.
also, we have to do what the real us says. No matter if nobody agrees with that decision. Else, we live someone else's life not our own. Thats our most important duty, dharma, our path.
Ive been in pondicherry since february, making pots and developing sculptural work. This time i also started teaching there which had some delightful results. Most students were french and reminded me again how similar we humans are no matter where we come from. Also taking children yoga workshop was tremendous fun, the high energy and playfulness that kids bring :)
However the intensity at which i worked at the pottery caused a disconnect in me. i overworked my body, did not listen to it and landed up in a lot of pain. Infact, instead of relaxing and allowing the distress to ease of I kept complaining and adding more toxic thoughts!! Its a miracle that i continued all that physically intense labours with clay, a sure enough proof of the years of loving yoga practises. Thats what really kept me going.
The fact was that i had completely stopped listening to what i really needed to do. So often we trick our self into believing something that doesnt really resonate with who we really are. I lost myself trying to "fit in" please others and keep up my goody good image. All this trying is so pointless coz you can never be truly good and loving if your unkind and false with yourself. And at the root is that doubt, the fear that "i am alone" so i "need" people or some thing or event or circumstance to achieve what i want. All this drama does is further to eat into your faith, that basic knowledge that it is life that supports us. Not people, circumstances or events. its our thoughts and feelings of love, appreciation and gratitude that really gets things going in the right direction.
and what is the right direction? the path, the activities that bring a sense of wholeness, a quiet joy in our heart. we know we are on the right way when we can stand up to a discomfort, question what is this fear and realise that its not so powerful. Let the worst happen, life always has supported me and will always continue to, as long as I appreciate and trust this wonderful life, God, higher being or energy. by whichever name you call it, doesnt really matter. Its the feeling that does matter.
and we can only start feeling all this when we are true to our self. To see whats really going on we need to quieten down, stop the incessant thoughts- doubts- fears. Yoga is one way. Following the flow of breath, we align to the flow of life. Now, i truly appreciate the beauty of my breath, of my life. Life wants me to breathe, to love, to enjoy it. Thats what i now know.
also, we have to do what the real us says. No matter if nobody agrees with that decision. Else, we live someone else's life not our own. Thats our most important duty, dharma, our path.
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